Chris and I spent last evening together on the couch watching "Breaking bad" in our pajamas, curled up under a blanket, eating pretzels, almonds and dark chocolate. It felt peaceful. At 11:45 we switched to regular TV to watch the ball drop. I had absolutely no envy for those sitting in the middle of all that excitement watching in Time Square. I was blissfully happy to be in my own home, to dream about the new possibilities the new year brings, and to feel such comfort and security in my home, in my life. I tip toed upstairs and woke Petru up at midnight, as promised, for a first 2013 kiss for him (second for me!). He did not believe me it was midnight and had to check his own watch before falling right back to sleep. And like that, a new year has just begun.
I don't make new year resolutions, but I do like to assess my own life and think ahead. As I clear out all the wrapping paper and boxes we collected over the past month, I realize that I want to own less, not more "stuff" in 2013. I also want more art on my walls, not expensive art, but meaningful art - some of my mom's work, some of my son's intricate railroad crossing/traffic lights black ink cities, and some art from my old home back in Romania. For every piece of clothing I get, I want to give one away. For every toy my son gets, I want him to choose to give one away. I want to foster more independence in my son, which means working through some of my own issues, so that I can let go. I want to be more patient with Chris, and break through some of the cultural issues that I have come to understand at a deeper level recently. I want to continue to enjoy my work and be challenged by it. I want to run, aim high, and be comfortable with whatever low that high might end up being. I want to work on embracing the changes that life brings, particularly when those changes include things that are unpleasant.
Happy New Year! What do you want in 2013?
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